The sourcedoodle oracle
This is a creation story of emerging from the shadows
'Like little souls dancing' they capture the fluidity and liminality of Source energy. A celebration of life force, and the sun and moon of you, through intuitive pencil drawings and digital wizardry. Ethereal images that call you into presence with yourself, like a prayer for your inner world.
January 2019
It began with a meditation and a quiet reclaiming of self.
As someone who yearned to call herself an artist, to live like one, to breathe like one….
I felt the whispers, of the drawings, that held healing magic, and I listened and let them come through me, as I held spaces for myself to just draw freely. Consistently.
One by one, fragments of myself came home. Messages from the collective spoke through, until 147 ethereal moments had birthed.
And then, in 2020, the world shutdown. And the images called me to listen deeper to the themes of my life, my survival, my journey, and I played with tools I discovered, to capture realms within me through digital wizardry. And first -
the Goddesses emerged
They emerged in the negative space to soothe my soul as a woman, bearing the scars of woman-ing. And the colours aligned with messages of healing and hope and the essence of light within them shone through in the digital possibilities.
And so, 9 images were reborn and their songs tapped at my heart and sang their way through, and then I knew…
They were more than me.
And as the world hid away and separation wounded us, a yearning for remembering that love must win, guided me to anchor the light as the matrix threatened to devour us all.
Remember Love?
-was a whisper destined to be a roar.
And so, the years passed
And in my personal transition I tended to the trauma legacy of my upbringing and dedicated myself to healing my nervous system, after a lifetime of CPTSD.
And 9 more images, the raw intuitive pencil images, called to me, and the colours of blue and red crystallised the cooling of the fire in my body that was keeping me in survival.
And so, I dedicated the images, with love letters to my body, to the cause of hope after relational injury.
And at the same time an emerging awareness of Autism called me to reframe my trauma, through an additional lens.
No Longer on Fire
- holds healing codes for a fragmented identity, that was in pain, dissociated and searching for wholeness.
And so, the lessons were becoming clear, let the images illustrate my deepest lessons and let their poetry create pathways to transcending the wounds, and deliver hope and freedom from the rigidity of mindset and brain wiring determinism.
And from that I drew from my deeper spiritual practice of meditation and philosophical beliefs about why we are here on Earth and so, with a healing nervous system and a renewed resolve I had made with myself to stay on the planet, I witnessed 3 images calling me to illustrate that promise to be here, to feel it all and to surrender to the present, grounded and flexible. A far cry from trauma and the agitation that it comes with.
And so, what lived as a concept of ‘guardians’ within me became-
Elegant Embodiment
A message of accepting and living a path with grace, doing my best with what I have, held by the diary potions of the birthed words that said – Live a life my darling observe it, record it, remember it, tuck it in your soul and keep going.
All this, at the same time I called in the name Bibi Aya, as a soul name, as a name for the creatrix within.
And so there I was 4 years later, pootling at my own pace in a world gone mad, when an urgency to complete this chapter called me.
One candlelit bath time in January 2024, my musings delivered a deep request from a higher self to ‘tend to my personal power, for it is not enough to be in your divine creative flow, tending to your inner world, embracing self-care and self-awareness. You are here to also make your mark, with confidence. Explore that. Explore why you shy away and why you give your power away, and why you are actually the protection you need’.
And so, the quest to step up and access the valuable elements of self-discipline, assertive energy and creating a stable, solid structure to hold and protect my softer self, was born.
Throughout early 2025 I waded, reluctantly, through the landscape of my inner world to find the internalised messages I’d been living by, of a toxic masculinity within me. And so, I pledged to pray my way through the images and hard words, since poetry is not always sweet, to face the truth of my own inaction, my own aggression and power dynamic wounds. It was a hard one to birth.
And still, I am startled by some of the 9 images of -
Surrender into the Yellow
But they must remain as they were birthed, and I imagine as with all the images and poetry, I shall integrate the lessons of a life lived and represented through art, I will come to see them all as friends, and divine catalysts for my growth.
And this is the moment to say…
I’ve witnessed over the years with the gentle slow release of this work, how each image lands with others, how something shifts for them, mirroring the way something shifted for me every time I drew them. And I listened, and I observed that medicine lived within them, speaking truths, even if we are not ready.
I’ve heard the call of the Ancestors willing us to break cycles and free ourselves from shadows of the past. Have you?
I’ve accepted my mission as a divine soul in a body, here to learn and make waves. Have you?
And so, the concept of the Oracle, partnered with the ethereal doodles from Source energy, came to be. For all of us black sheep, out-of-the-box changemakers who won’t be quiet.
Are you resonating?
I invite you to relax the thinking mind and immerse yourself In the energy, and trust what you are drawn to.
33 moments of opportunity to tend to your inner world and seed your own healing.
Let them be your prayer…
Let them be the beginning of your new crescendo…
Who will you choose?
Thank you for witnessing this journey, of 6 years of growth and development of this precious work. May my story help you to remember your own value and purpose for being here.
November 7th, 2025
Marks the moment I release all the images and poetry to the world. And with it I create a shift within me that has unleashed life force energy waiting to flourish.
The only way out is through.
I made it safe for me to be an artist.
It was no one else’s job.
I hold the unfolding of my own gentle, creative self.
The feminine and masculine working together, in love, nervous system regulation and a philosophy for life to take the path of least resistance.
I stepped up and took action. And now you can share it.
Bibi x
Never forget your dream.
Work with all sides of yourself